Well fuck a goddamned duck.

I messed with the settings on my blog ages ago and made it less easy to search. Back when those shitbag comp lawyers were reading it. Although that was sort of silly, I guess, since I specifically wrote many posts for them to read. Dumb shits.

So that heading,'Fuck a goddamned duck' may not attract a lot of notice, which is fine. I write for me.
(It's fine for you to read, too...)

On the other hand, I may attract some kind of weirdo after all.
Who knows?
::shrug:::

Wait... raise your hand if you're weird.
:::waiting:::

Ah yes, I see you over there in the back. And you, halfway up the aisle, feet hanging out into the walkway. And you, groping your neighbor.

Huh. I guess there are more of you than I thought.
I can't see the point in worrying about weirdos now.

Yep, this IS one of you. I think.

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So my principal talked to me a few weeks ago. He said that the district was going to send out a survey to parents in the district to find out their feelings and wishes about childcare being offered in each school. At that time he assured me that he'd already let the district know that he was quite happy with the care already being provided in our school and that there was 'nothing' to worry about.

I worried. He told me to tell parents that it was 'just a survey' and that no one was planning to change our arrangements. I still worried, but didn't say much about it. What could I say?

So then, one of my parents came in and said that she'd received the survey and it was about the SUN program. Which, in my opinion, is a terrible program. The people who work in that program do not have to pass a licensing inspection, they get around that law as well as others through some legal but shady maneuvering.

I have seen several of their programs in action. None of them were programs I'd ever trust my child(ren) with. Appalling is just one word I'd use. Ugh.

So I told her that our principal had assured me that everything was fine, that our program wasn't going anywhere.

I actually believed it.
Until today.

Today our principal stopped by to tell me that the district is 'probably' going to have THE COMPANY I USED TO WORK FOR!!! (aka Assholes Inc, not the SUN program) come into our district and run programs before and after school.

"But of course we'll take steps to ensure you remain the site coordinator here. Apparently they usually hire the people who are working in the current programs."

I smiled at him.
"Um. I used to work for them. That's where I was just before I got here. I will never work for them again. They're horrible individuals and a terrible company to work for."

He told me, "Well, don't worry about it yet, I am going to a meeting tomorrow and I'll learn more about what's going on then."

Have you ever worried? And had someone suggest to you that you not worry?
Were you then magically able to stop worrying?

Yeah, me neither.

Now if it *does* happen, I won't work for those awful people again.

I doubt they'd want me anyway, although I didn't use words like fuck and shit or phrases like up yours, I still did a pretty good job of burning bridges. I heard through the grapevine that some of what I said was useful in termination of the Big Fish, too. Not sure about that, but if it was, yay. At any rate, they wouldn't want me back and they couldn't pay me enough to even consider it. No fucking way.

They pay shit wages and not only do they treat their employees like crap, they're very disrespectful to the children stuck in their 'care'. It's only gotten worse since I left with the whole 'one art project every 10 days' and 'let's do school after school' stuff.

So I did my afternoon shift today with a big lump in my heart. The principal told me that he is to attend a meeting tomorrow in which more discussion will happen and that he'll have some better information for me tomorrow.

Now if it does happen, and I have to leave, I won't lose my job. The company I work for is always hiring. And opening new sites. They already know that I'm good at what I do, that I am able to form relationships with school staff and that I take the job seriously. I'm sure there's a place for me.

But goddamn it.

I don't want to start over again.

Fuck a goddamned duck.