Currently driving me bugshit...

Something bit me on the left shoulder, right near the point of the bone on my upper arm. And the thing feels like a bruise, although there's no visible discoloration. It is a little bump, but it's in such an awkward place that I can't really see it. It made my arm ache a bit today, and is bothering me tonight, too. But I haven't had any ill effects from it, so I am guessing it's not going to make me sick at this point. I'll slap some cortisone cream on it when I go to bed tonight and hope that it will be gone in the morning. We do have a number of mean looking spiders in the house lately. Many more in the yard. I've started parking a little bit further from the landscaping etc because if I don't, they build webs between the car and the plants. And after I walk through a web I get to do the spider dance at 6 AM because it's not bad enough to have to leave the house at that ungodly hour.
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I'm hot.
No, wait. I'm cold.
No. I'm hot.
I'm cold.

Sweaty. Hot flashes.

I cover up and uncover about 14 times a night. I wake up because I am uncomfortable. Doze back off, wake up, doze off, wake up... it's nuts.
It happens multiple times each day, too.

I don't even want to consider hormonal treatment, I think we've all heard the horror stories. Although it's inconvenient and bothersome and a real pain in the ass, it's just temperature fluctuations, right?
Gahhhh.
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I can't find my necklace. The one I've been wearing for almost four years. On the chain are charms for Matt and Lyssa. I added one for Amy last year. There's also a little ring on it with a black diamond. Eric bought it for me in Ouray, Colorado the day we decided to get married. July 4th, 1980.

While Bob was here, I remember rushing into my room to change my shirt when we were getting ready to go somewhere. I distinctly remember taking the necklace off and putting it somewhere, but I don't remember where. It's bothering the hell out of me. I can replace it, and can replace the charms, too. But I can't replace the ring Eric gave to me. I was on the verge of ordering a new one last week, but I have decided to wait a bit and hope it turns up.
::sigh::
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The weather is changing. I wish for a few more weeks of mild fall temperatures so I can take the kids outdoors, but I am guessing we're just about at the end of Mother Nature's indulgence and getting perilously close to the rainy season. Which is closely followed by mud season. All wrapped up in wind.

I hate the heat, of course. So I am glad for the cooler temps, especially at night. But I would love to have just a little more time...

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It seems that things are going faster and faster as I get older. So often I want to yell, "STOP!!" and just... rest. Stop with the crazy running around. I am always home just long enough to mess things up. Same for work. Just long enough to mess things up. It's a pain in the ass.

Anyway, that's most of what's in my brain. I have more, but I need to get a shower before bed. 58 hot flashes* a day does that to a girl.

* that may be a slight exaggeration