Just Weight

Every year, I join millions of people vowing to lose weight. I don't always make that vow on January 1st, however. Sometimes I start over again two or three times a year. I have even lost some in the past. 20 lbs here or there... not enough to motivate me. If I could lose 60 lbs overnight, I think I'd really feel like continuing. Or, if someone offered me like 10 bucks a pound...
In my case, it's not losing weight that's the point. I just want to be in better physical condition. I'm slow on hikes. I'm tired. My clothes could double as tents in a nomads crossing the desert movie. I miss out on a lot of things. I am filled with self-loathing at times. I'd like to be able to run, although I always hated it. Now that I really can't do it, I hate not being able to. My thoughts on the subject ramble all over. I'll try to get them in some sort of coherent order and share. Bet ya can't wait.